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I have pretty much been a fat girl most of my life. I have done tons of things to try to loose weight but never got to a place where I was comfortable in my own skin. even now Im not expecting to ever get skinny but I do want to be comfortable, and want to be healthy not only for me but for my amazing husband and beautiful kids! they deserve a healthy and happy Jess!
the last 6 years I have had the excuses of having three babies and nursing but Im done with this stage in life. Almost my youngest will be a year old in 6 weeks which is when I will forever be done nursing!!!for me I tend to hold onto weight while Im nursing no matter how hard I try so I decided to give myself this past year but its time to drop this weight and get healthy once and for all! I figure Im going to start 6 weeks early so I can learn the program and get into a routine that works.
Im starting this blog to keep myself accountable. Im going to be posting my weekly/biweekly weight ins and I dont ever want to have to post how I have fallen off the wagon and gained weight. not sure if this approach is going to help me but time will tell. :)
I started Weight watchers today. I did this 5 years ago and the program really worked for me at the time so I know if I stay true to the program this time, I will loose weight.
My ultimate goal is by June 2012 (my 30th birthday) to be at a place where Im comfortable with myself and my body. I hesitate to put a number on this because I honestly dont know where this will be. Charts for my height of 5'11 range from 155-180. I cant ever imagine being close to 150 but who knows what will happen. When I get to 180 I know I will be beyond excited but will I be comfortable? I wont know till Im there. WW give you small goals to work at and my first weight they want me to achieve is 5% loss (11lbs) and then it will be a 10% loss (23lbs) they also encourage you to do this at a slow pace of 1-2lbs a week. SO I think my goal of June 2012 is a safe END goal even if I have 81.4lbs to loose (that would put me at 155)
I know this next year is going to have alot of ups and downs, but Im excited and ready for it!!! :)